poem/song that came to me on the wsy to work so i quickly wrote it down, i likw it,
there’s only so many hours left in a day,
times moving faster,
there’s only one way.
travelling on this journey,
listening to the story
we’ve only got one life
it’s what we do with the time we have
there’s so many things I gotta do before its too late!
so enjoy this journey,
living in the story,
make the most of every second left in your day☺
today had been a lovely day. I started the day with a lovely walk in the sunshine with frost on the ground lively and refreshing. I then went to my grandparents to show them my wedding invitations and met my cousins Rachael and Matthew Rachael is my maid of honour they all loved the invitations and things seem to be getting that little bit more exciting again ☺ another fab thing from today was that we have managed to get a wedding cake maker and she’s able to do the design we want! even better we get to meet her for coffee and try cake samples mmmm don’t mind if we do! 😂 as the day draws to a close I have taken some time just for me to relax which I rarely do mam bought me some temple spa products most of which I’m saving for my honeymoon but I decided to use the foot cream and hand cream tonight and they are both like heaven my skin feels amazing and it feels like I’ve had a mini spa session so relaxing, thing is these products aren’t the cheapest to buy so will have to treat myself occasionally my heads always running a hundred miles an hour and with return to work full time and all of the wedding organisations the next few month is going to be hectic there will be some amazing but some stressful times. I need to try and take even 10 minutes out of my day to colour or pamper myself so that my body and mind get chance to relax for a while. my sleep is becoming disturbed again which sucks as I’ve been managing a good few months of sleeping all night. I think it’s because there’s literally so much happening righy now that my minds finding it difficult to switch off. if only it was that simple eh. like a light switch on during the day to serve it’s purpose and energy then off on the night to switch off until it’s next needed! that would be ideal! I hope everyone has had a nice weekend whatever it involved ☺
today has been very hard work. behavioural problems with the little one I support has taken up a lot of the day to calm reassure and try and find compromise and reasoning behind uncalled for behaviour. nightmare. I try to be fair but when things need sorting professionally I am also able to put on my stern “I’m not impressed by your actions and you have really upset me by what you have done” voice, I hate shouting though I just try and sort things in a matter of fact way! but my good I’m shattered drained I don’t even know the words I’m feeling all off my energy I think I threw into this day to try and come to a negotiable outcome but tomorrow requires a meeting with parents about today’s issues hoping tomorrow is a better day for little one and for the staff involved. I do love my job I really do but just goes to show no two days are the same and shows the up and down roller coaster of life that sometimes we are expected to adapt to but sometimes it’s not easy. tonight there’s questions flying round my head, is it my me that’s upset his routine and caused him to behaviour irrationality am I not disciplining enough, am I doing the right thing, should I change what I am doing, what can I do differently. be mind will be in overdrive with these questions going rides a bipolar mind never rests it’s always active even during sleep the mind is still rationalising and trying to make sense of the trillions of unanswered messages going on in there no wonder life is a daily struggle for us bipolar suffers. well as they say onwards and upwards tomorrow is a brand new day with new horizons!
I hope that everyone has enjoyed the festive period and new year with family and friends. I was lucky enough to have a wonderful Christmas time with friends family and loved ones. we enjoyed new years eve by having a meal with our next door neighbour a then having a few drinks with them at there house. christmas seems to have been and gone in a quick blur and January is nearing an end already. I returned back to work full time at the beginning of January the first week back I was absolutely exhausted physically and mentally as it has been nearly a year since I worked full time it’s a big step from working part time to think go to full time . this week I have been much better have more energy and stamina. although I am going to bed pretty early. but that’s like most people after a long day at work tiredness kick in
mentally I feel things are pretty stable and I feel on a level key and hope this stability remains. wedding plans are still going great and I don’t feel at all stressed by them as we have a lot of the things already done photographer booked wedding cars venue ceremony, reception, catering, dj, bar, table decorations etc. invitations due in next week or so to. once the invitations are our and returned to us I think the stress levels may go up in terms of planning the setting plan everyone is telling me that is the most stressful part! if anyone has a easy guide to setting plan I would be very grateful lol! hope everyone is having a promising start to the new year like I am! take care x