Just a update I don’t post in here as often as I used to but I still like to read other people’s blogs and take some inspirations and tips about there coping strategies. I’m doing really well at the moment despite the prospect of possible reduency next year and a wedding to plan for I’m taking everything in my stride so much so that the psychiatrist is really impressed with my progress and I’m gradually reducing my medication. I’m pleased about this as if I can cope with my bipolar without as many medications pumping through my veins it’s a good thing and proves how far I am in my road back to recovery. I won’t lie some days are more challenging than others and no two days are the same. But I’m doing the best I can do and I’m happy with how things are going so will continue the positive thinking and attitude.
Today’s a lovely autumnal day,
Enjoying things that come my way.
The autumnal colours red, yellow, brown and green,
Are the beautiful colours I’ve ever seen.
Autumn is my favourite season,
It’s cosy, it’s warm, it’s peaceful it’s calm.
Things are going well for me,
There’s still some days that my mind disagrees
I still get days of severe fatigue
And feelings that I have no motivation
But I’m trying to stick to a new philosophy
Every day do something just for me
Believe in myself that I have done good
I’ve done something today that makes me proud
I am strong I am helpful I’m caring I’m kind.
I always put others before myself and try to put away the negative thoughts in my mind.
I’m doing just fine
And I’m grateful for all the chances that I have.
haven’t posted for a while as I have been full of busy with work wedding plans and just life in general really. Things are good mood wise and I feel content and in control. I have pushed myself to go to Zumba class this week and I have been to two I love it its great exercise and such good fun. But my God do I ache tonight I feel about 60 but it will all be worth it if I tone up and loose some weight for my lovely wedding dress. It’s been a lovely afternoon too I have had my next door neighbour round for a catch up and coffee. Having a early night as I’m shattered not sure what I’m doing tomorrow see where the day takes me I guess! Bye for now
I swear when the weather is full and gloomy it has an effect on your mood as I have felt dull and gloomy all day. At work there is a lot of secrecy and meetings going on and all staff have to go at set times over the next few days to talk with the headteacher about something. We all know that there’s financial difficulties at the moment but we are all trying our hardest to keep our high standard as an outstanding school our professionalism and dedication to our jobs hasn’t change. I am lucky that I adore the job I do and not a lot of people say that about there job there is never been a time when I’ve thought screw this job it’s shit! Everyone feels like they are walking on eggshells at the minute and we shouldn’t guess and worry ourselves of what the news could be. At the minute I’m grateful of each day that I am continuing to do the job I love. There is worries in my head but I’m trying to keep myself busy at home to help take joy mind off these worries. Sleep is becoming problematic again which sucks a bit as my sleep has been great for a good few weeks. I think it’s because there is a mixture of things going on for me right now enjoyable wedding plans and preparations but then the worry of possible redundancy and not being able to afford the mortgage or the wedding, it’s positive battling against negative and it’s becoming hard to keep upbeat and positive but I’m trying my best!
i haven’t updated or wrote on here for a long time as it’s been very busy recently. All te wedding plans are definitely in full swing and I’m loving every minute of it. Don’t feel stressed, certainly not over excited, I think I’m as excited as every bride to be is I don’t think there is any set level of excitement! This weekend has been particularly enjoyable as on Saturday night I had my bridesmaids round and present them with a goodbag the maid of honour had a personalised wooden heart ask her to be our maid of honour and the other bridesmaids had a personalised card with a bracelet and sentimental message on asking each of them to be bridesmaids they loved it! And so happy to have my best friends and my cousin as my maid of honour! These girls are my rocks and I love them all to pieces! We had an amazing night of films chatting and some alcohol may of been sampled lol! Today we went to a wedding fayre all 4 of us which had 100 exhibitors and it was amazing! There was some amazing bride dresses to see and I was just in complete awe to a far few of them I can’t wait to do wedding dress shopping! But that’s a few month away need to loose a few pounds before that! There was some lovely ideas for decor and inspiration the girls loved it and then we enjoyed a Sunday lunch together before heading home. Another thing that has made my day is getting contacted off a old friend who had found out I was engaged and wished me good luck and congrats which was lovely and means a lot to me. Sometimes things happen and life gets in the way and you loose contact with the people who meant the most to you and there’s no explanation why. But when you start messaging it becomes instantly like old times but it’s kinda weird too after literally years! Anyway I feel like I’m living a dream at the moment but I certainly don’t want to wake up!